i feel lousy. and i hate feeling like this. whatever you told me awhile ago made me reflect on myself. many things were going through my mind. it made me seem like i have many flaws and am not good for you. you are expecting much more from me which i didn't realized or perhaps i took it too lightly. it brings down my self-esteem. it hurts to feel this way. feels as though there are many daggers stabbing my chest. i hate to see myself getting into arguments and quarrels but at times it is inevitable.
you said i wasn't there for you. you have doubts about me being there for you. should you even feel that way? it's contradicting.
i tried. i tried to be better each time. i don't know if you notice it. but maybe what i tried wasn't enough. i don't want things to turn out this way but i'm not perfect either.i will try. i'm sorry.
|| 9:47 PM
alhamdulilah :) i passed my nsl practical. i feel really relieved. it's like phewww. now,i can concentrate on doing notes for my coming exams. i have been skipping lots of lectures lately. i know i shouldn't be doing that since exams are around the corner,but i'm just... lazy you can say.
this morning boyfriend came and passed me a note just before my practical which totally lit me up. i love to see his cute handwriting. it doesn't look like it belongs to a 20year old guy :p love you.
now that nsl is over,i will have more breaks in between and i don't have to come to school early on some days :))
haha. i head to scape with my girls. hee,i saw him sing. awww! hahs,went down to town and home soon after :) short day cause of the bad weather.
|| 9:09 PM
the people that made it happened :)
these are the photos taken for the ns4 video. lol! you can see the make-up. HAHAHA! so embarrassing. so much of hardwork but in the end we need to re-do everything cause we got the concept wrong. :( but i'm sure we are gonna get through this. hee
Tuesday, January 25, 2011 || 7:23 PM
HAHAHA.
school is superr hectic! i have two tests coming up. but i have yet to study :/ i'm really bad at managing time. that's bad yknow. i did my nsl individual presentation. was not at all impress with myself. was pretty much disappointed. i could have done better. lack the confidence. urghhh! sucks uhh? :( i hate those cina(s)! everything also kiasu rightt? why aren't you guys kiasu over presenting first? got no guts uhh? >:(
as for today,i had a really short day in school. 2hours of lecture and that's it. initial plan was to go to marina barrage to shoot ns4 video. somehow the weather was bad and we had to change our plans. had brunch at ljs and did our shoot at dhoby ghout . i thought that make-up was unnecessary. but the rest said it would help to bring out the character. goshhh! i looked like a clown yknow with that make-up. apparently,i had to play the role of a girl who has bipolar disorder. it was embarrassing but i had fun i guess. hahaha! stay tune for the video :DD
i think i'm falling sick soon :(
|| 7:11 PM
i can't find a better video. goshhh! he's so charminggggg. and he got the charisma. *melts* really,really! awww. i can just smile watching this.
let's start. friday- no school. however i was confused over my nsl individual assignment and i am lucky enough cause love offered his help :) so, we met up at je library where he helped me with sorting out of the flip-charts for patient education. thanks,baby. later i accompanied him to get a birthday gift for his mom. happy birthday,cik :)
i met love as early as 7.30 yesterday morning. hee^^ accompanied him to get his iphone. i love the peace at singapore river in the morning. it's so calm. after getting the iphone, we head to town. love was so occupied with his iphone that he neglect me. hmmph! :) met glenn and soon we were off to watch burlesque. (Y)(Y) his treat,thanks love. goshhh! i would love to have that kind of bod. it's so sexayyy. and the boy, his mouth was wide open throughout the whole movie. he was overwhelmed by christina's bod. hehehe. well,i was too! the dance moves was awesomeeeee. let's enroll myself in dancing class. so i can dance like that. LOL.
"mahkota saya cuma untuk seorang lelaki yang boleh membimbing dan meminpin saya. bukan untuk lelaki yang cuma fikirkan nafsu semata-mata"
- aku masih dara
it's a nice movie,go watch it! ^^
|| 12:00 AM
Wednesday, January 19, 2011 || 8:50 PM
HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAYYY,LIL SIS!
Sunday, January 16, 2011 || 8:09 PM
everyone wants to have a perfect love story; like the ones you see in fairytales. that includes me. who doesn't righttt? but it's hard
|| 10:05 AM
hi,she is my sister. ^^
Saturday, January 15, 2011 || 8:29 PM
saturday was pleasant. minus the unwanted changes in plan. i had a 2 great plans for boyfriend. but somehow the weather does not permit it and there were other reservations made. :( and i had to change it at the very last minute. told the boy to meet me at cityhall. haha,i rushed over earlier to get the movie tickets. and i waited for him. hee,i should have blind-folded him and put a masking tape over his mouth cause he cannot stop asking me where we are heading to. hello,mister hot it was supposed to be a surprise! -.- hee ^^
went to the movie theater,he kept asking me what movie and all those stuffs. hee,if i had micropore with me,i would have put it over his mouth. lol,sorry. love and other drugs was niceee! too many obscene scenes. hahaha. after movie,we walked around and went to hb for breeks. go jalan2 then homeeee.
Thursday, January 13, 2011 || 9:29 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,BOYFRIEND!
Sunday, January 9, 2011 || 7:47 PM
i had a great weekend! saturday was spent with the girls. nira had a brilliant idea. she suggested ice-skating. it was super hilarious cause none of us know how to skate. but somehow,i manage to skate. not that good,cause i still fall every now and then. hahaha! HAPPT 15TH TO US,NIRA. i love you.
i met love as early as 7.30 yesterday morning. hee^^ accompanied him to get his iphone. i love the peace at singapore river in the morning. it's so calm. after getting the iphone, we head to town. love was so occupied with his iphone that he neglect me. hmmph! :) met glenn and soon we were off to watch burlesque. (Y)(Y) his treat,thanks love. goshhh! i would love to have that kind of bod. it's so sexayyy. and the boy, his mouth was wide open throughout the whole movie. he was overwhelmed by christina's bod. hehehe. well,i was too! the dance moves was awesomeeeee. let's enroll myself in dancing class. so i can dance like that. LOL. 
everyone wants to have a perfect love story; like the ones you see in fairytales. that includes me. who doesn't righttt? but it's hard 
saturday was pleasant. minus the unwanted changes in plan. i had a 2 great plans for boyfriend. but somehow the weather does not permit it and there were other reservations made. :( and i had to change it at the very last minute. told the boy to meet me at cityhall. haha,i rushed over earlier to get the movie tickets. and i waited for him. hee,i should have blind-folded him and put a masking tape over his mouth cause he cannot stop asking me where we are heading to. hello,mister hot it was supposed to be a surprise! -.- hee ^^ 
i had a great weekend! saturday was spent with the girls. nira had a brilliant idea. she suggested ice-skating. it was super hilarious cause none of us know how to skate. but somehow,i manage to skate. not that good,cause i still fall every now and then. hahaha! HAPPT 15TH TO US,NIRA. i love you.
