i went for my appointment just now only to know that i need to be on full cast for a month! FUCK! like seriously. having the cast on is like a hindrance to my life. what worries me most is my practical assessment. i wonder how the arrangement is going to be like. will it affect my graduation? i hate this!
i persuaded the doctor to remove the cast but he said that my bones will not be able to form back together and that will cause many more complications. i teared thinking about many things. then regrets started to sink in. if only i didn't ride the bicycle. if only i didn't have the fall. if only i could turn back the time. why me?! i know,i cannot do anything cause all of it had happened. but you are not in my position to feel what i'm feeling. this feeling just weakens me deep inside and makes me tear each time i think about it. it's like i'm in no control of my tears. i'm really upset over this. really really upset.
now,i'm on this cast. for a month! A MONTH, MIND YOU! it's not like for another 1 week or so. it's 4 bloody weeks! >:/ i cannot go out and my movements are limited. what's worst, unable to do things which you planned months ago. sucks uhh?! my 2weeks of holiday gone just like that! i wanna do lots of things yknow. it's not like i'm a free person sitting at home shake leg. _|_
just now,when making my way home from lot1,i had so much of trouble walking with those crutches. my arms are aching so are my abdomen and i wonder how i'm going to manage in school tmr :'( i feel like giving up everything.