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Tuesday, April 10, 2012 || 1:43 PM
okay, so i've got myself a job. i'm happy but at the same time i'm pretty scared, anxious hmm nervous? yeaa, that kind of feeling you get when you're a lil unsure and stuff? soon, i'll be a working adult and providing for myself? woahhh, that sounds pretty big. and i'm super scared of it!
for all yknow, ayah have been providing for me all this while. i never took up any part-time job to provide for myself or whatever. no, i'm not boasting but that's what's happening. that's why i'm not sure if i'm able to provide for myself. i always envy people who can work and study at the same time. hmm, for example my bf? he works and study at the same time. and i must say that he is doing pretty good. his work never affect his studies. he always motivates me ^^ *suffian, i'm praising you! *
sometimes i asked myself if i really wanna do this. yknow, being a nurse is never easy? nurses are often being looked down at for having more than 20pointers for our o levels. but if you were to sit in our course and go through it for 3years you wouldn't say that. i'm very sure! not all of us have 20pointers. there are some of us who actually do really well for o levels yknow.
people often think that all nurses do is to clean butt. CAN I EMPHASIZE THAT WE DO MORE THAN THAT! you get me? i mean like seriously. stop having this kind of perception. i hate it. i just hope that my working journey will be a smooth one. insyallah.
but i'm glad that bf is there to support me. he's always there to tell me that i made the right choice and he will be supporting me in whatever i'm gonna do. i feel so blessed to have him. yknow whenever i'm not sure of anything, i always know i've got him to talk to and come to a decision. i can be very fickle-minded but suffian will always try to reason things out for me. thank god, i found you.
my family have always been supportive of me. especially ibu. she is so proud that i actually made it through the interview and is finally starting work. she is even more happy when i told her that i'm gonna be a nurse. i'm happy that she is happy. that sight when you see her smiling from ear to ear is priceless.
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